I make a plan of my whole life, but i'm not strong enough to play by my own rules. Noone knows the choice I made, nobody is there who helps me crossing the line.
I see the old photographys and wonder why this isn't still me. I miss my own me.
This is not the way i want to go. I don't want to have to build walls around my heart. I wanna be like everyone else but i walk in the wrong direction and i can't turn around.
I feel alone, when there's no new message on my phone. I'm captured in a world without any colour. Though i open my eyes i still only see my memories. The daydream has turned into a nightmare.
I wanna wake up and feel the right floor underneath my feet. But i need someone who pulls me on the right way. I don't want to call this emptieness "my mind".
I don't want to loose the skill of loving. But I loose myself behind the fence around my mind. Bring me back to myself, 'cause i fall on the ground...
I must call "yesterday" better than "now"